0933-923-540 強迫症人生

Everything ends,road does, daytime does, life does, pain does, movie does, TV show does, anything
anything but love

"I'm tired of looking around rooms wondering what i gotta do or who I supposed to be 
I don't wanna be anything other than me"

we spent so much time wanting, wishing, pursuing

One tree Hill ended today, final season, final episode. Season 9.
The first time I watched this tv show, it was 9 years ago
I was 18
I loved Lucas( till he divorced Sophia Bush) so much that I decided I would name my first boy Lucas  
That time, I know nothing. I had no idea what kind of person I would become and what I would be capable of.
Life was nothing but a imagination of mine. I thought everything would be perfect.
I thought I could control everything.
I thought love is a fairy tale. 

Now I am 26. 83333 (OKAY OKAY OKAY I AM 27!!!!!!!), had 3 relationship and all ended not very nicely (ha ha, ha ha, ha ha
I understand that I can't always get what I want
I understand that people not always will love you in return, 
I understand sometimes even I didn't want to, still I hurt people.

I hope life is fair
May the bad people get what they deserved
May the good people live happily after

I consider myself a lucky person, loved by god
but I don't know where I am heading
I can't see my future
I can't see a home of mine
I don't know where will I end up
I hope all the tears I've cried, all the good deeds I've done, and all the compromises I've made
can exchange a life I dream of 
If it's up to me, I wish
I wish, I will marry to a guy who will think I am the best thing in his life
I wish I am beautiful in his eyes.
I wish I will love him more than anything, 
I wish I will love him more than my life. 
We can fight, we can cry, but we love 
A family, full of joy. I want my children to be safe

Everyone is getting marry...........
And I don't even have a boyfriend!!!!
Can some one please let me know if everything will be okay?  if I will end up just fine?
Tv show ends with a happy ending, will my life?